urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:unkept_promises never felt real unkept_promises 2005-03-24T04:32:36Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:unkept_promises:3215 2005-03-24T04:32:36Z 2005-03-24T04:32:36Z remember, i'm not sure how we spelled it.<br />I feel wrong for staying as long as i did. should have found a motel, hotel whatever the fuck just to get me out of there. Because i know it's not what you wanted. And now i'm here and waiting for word but you've never even said. <br />so i sit with music drowing out the head noise. <br />And i'm a bitch i know it, but then i know I know this own't be seen.<br />So it doesn't mater, nothing matters. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:unkept_promises:1356 2004-06-08T09:15:26Z 2004-06-08T09:15:26Z hmm it needed some upkeep I've decided i like it better bright bright red rather than the usual mediocre red. However the tub here holds water (all my dead hair falling out and clogging the drain. In any case, standing in ankle deep blood red water. hmm what was then insane girl thinking? You take a guess. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:unkept_promises:1263 2004-06-07T09:56:50Z 2004-06-07T09:56:50Z emotional wreckage...she falls to a heap on the floor. Drown me...down me... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:unkept_promises:804 2004-04-15T07:58:56Z 2004-04-15T07:58:56Z Sometimes<br />it feels as if your drowning when no water is present.<br />I can't explain. I never was one who could speak. Everything in my life seems so uncertain. I don't understand why nothing ever seems to blatantly work out for me. Everything good has come with a heavy price. Don't know where my head has gone. I didn't sleep much last night. Work today. Nearly drove myself mad. If my head would shut up for .2 seconds...i'd be happier. <br />All the dirty disgusting bits of my soul seem to be leaking through to the surface of my skin. I can't hack out the vile creature...i may try but she never goes. she never dies. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:unkept_promises:581 2004-03-10T01:11:35Z 2004-03-10T01:11:35Z i thought i'd write my story<br />i've shoved so much away for so long<br />all the gorey details <br />no holds bar...there will be nothing left out<br />i will bleed it to the paper straight forward for once<br />riddles don't kill the problems, not that i think speaking will<br />pen to paper before i drown.